The first confession - Either you do, or you're damned.

Inspiration. And me. They do not go well together. Because unlike what most people think, motivation is really not always a given in combination with motivation. And you really, really.. really need to be motivated to act on your inspiration. Or the other way around - you need to be inspired to act on your motivation. And for some strange reason - motivation and inspiration never really go hand in hand for me, which i regret deeply.

You could argue, that you could force motivation - like when you postpone to work on an assignment until the day before it's due, and the fear and time pressure force motivates you into making haste and writing that damn thing. You don't have a choice - weather you have inspiration or not something will be written. And that is both good and bad - because I would get nothing done if I didn't have fear as a motivation factor, but at the same time; if my work isn't in some form or way inspired - it sucks. 

More often than not, I'm really inspired. I get flashes of ideas and visuals of what I want to make, but... the motivation, though present for a moment or two, just vanishes. Slowly, without a trace, it just starts to fade into oblivion. I would really love to create thing. Hell - if I'd created half of my inspired project, I would be so damn interesting. But I just can't. And that transfers like a bad decease into the rest of my life, because I can't get any motivation and fuel it with inspiration and create anything beautiful or productive. And I would really love to.

I would love to create music, or art, or dancing, or sports, or chores or something productive and beautiful. And that is why i created this blog - that started/starts of really unmotivated. I'm gonna try to force motivation, fed my by fear of being plain, boring and insignificant. 

This... is the confessions of a procrastinator. 

Cheers
Soff